Personal Musings

How’s Your Heart Lately?

Enough with the mumbo jumbo of press releases and product reviews.  As much as I enjoy attending and having these blog perks I kinda miss my freedom of expression. I hope you don’t mind if I shit my thoughts for a while.

The past few days if you have been following my twitter or instagram I’ve been posting hints of loneliness in my posts.  Bad for my kikay-giddy image? I guess.  I’m not sure.  Maybe brands would appreciate the fact that I’m a real person,  flawed and unperfect.  We can’t be cheery all the time can we? Jaded.

I got this coined term from Liz (projectvanity. com)  where some “famed”  bloggers would be so clouded and overwhelmed with all the perks that thyry actually forget why they’re doing this in the first place.  To share what we love and know to readers or we can also rant about what we don’t like so much so you can be aware.

In terms of my personal life,  pardon if I vent but it is indeed a challenge to extinguish demons I create in my mind. I get paranoid sometimes and think that people,  even those I love,  would do things that would hurt me like betrayal and abandonment. I wonder if anyone could relate to this.  Trauma from the past maybe?  To those who has been following this blog,  you know my story of how my husband left me and my son alone around 3 years ago.

Should we always blame the past?  If we think logically we can all agree that once we forgive and learn,  we can get on and move forward with our lives ; learning to love again,  learning to trust again.  It’s only and always fear that is holding us back from opening ourselves again to others. This is not just in romantic relationships mind you,  it can also be applied to friendships.  I need to open my heart to be able to finally fully express myself.
I need to focus on what’s real and what is. 

How’s your heart lately?

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    hi, maybe you would like to try luxxe white plus luxxe protect. you cn contact me at this number. 09225620304.thanks

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 16, 2014 at 5:09 am

    Thanks for the review! I am fond of trying whitening products and I would love to give it a shot

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 18, 2014 at 3:58 am

    Try mo abonne milk, ireview ko sya this week abangan mo. Ako naman skin ko before sobrang dry parang blackboard pwedeng sulatan!

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 18, 2014 at 4:00 am

    You're welcome dear!

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 18, 2014 at 4:00 am

    Sige pag nakakuha ko 🙂

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 18, 2014 at 4:01 am

    Currently I'm taking 1600mg gluta with Tatiomax. Yes effective ang belo soap

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 18, 2014 at 6:07 am

    haha opo ung skin ko sa binti parang may kaliskis sa kintab.. wait ko po ung review sa abonne milk! thanks po sa mga sagot!

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 18, 2014 at 11:55 am

    Goin to wait for your review. Have you tried thai gluta products? Theres lots of em on ig. Havent found a decent review on any of the gluta caps or tabs from thai.

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 24, 2014 at 8:35 am

    14 yrs old po ako. Pwede ba sakin ang gumamit ng Belo? Gusto ko ng bumili pero baka hindi pwede

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 25, 2014 at 12:59 pm

    Miss kat, im taking Snow Caps twice a day, and a 500mg once a day. I'm only 17. magkakadiarrhea ba ko if gawin kong 100mg ung vitamin C?

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 27, 2014 at 7:03 am

    hi. im now taking cosmo skin gluta for a month now. there is no whitening result for me. im taking it twice a day. one in the morning and one at night. im also taking 1000mg of vitamin c and myra 400 iu. should i stop na ba? i feel like im wastng my money lang… or do i need to wait for another month? kasi their promise is the product will whitens your skin in 2 weeks time. hindi nman ako maitim so im expecting fast result.

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 27, 2014 at 7:14 am

    Like I said in my post, I never liked Cosmo skin and I'm not using it.
    You can try other brands

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 27, 2014 at 11:52 am

    kikaysikat what brand of gluta you think works well for you? thanks

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva August 28, 2014 at 3:13 pm

    hi miss kat.. have u heared about beauche' products esp their soap? have you tried it? just wanna ask if which is more effecive.. if this belo soap or the beauche' soap…. am really looking for a soap which can treat my prob with regards to dry skin and some peklat on my legs… thanks.. looking forward for ur response..

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 4, 2014 at 1:34 am

    Hi Mae!
    Natry ko na yang Beauche I posted a review here.
    I suggest for first use mag Beauche ka muna

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 4, 2014 at 1:35 am

    vitapack megawhite 😀 and tatiomax!

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 8, 2014 at 5:22 am

    Hello ~ for those who would try cosmo , wag na . LOL

    i take 2 bottles of it with grape seed tablet , walang effect sakin and it made me sick , wala akong gana kumain , feeling ko lagi ako inaantok and the worst is the stomach pain .

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 12, 2014 at 2:53 am

    Hello, everyone!

    I haven't tried taking any whitening supplement yet, but allow mo to share some tips lang kasi it worked with my friend.

    Kung medyo brownish yung skin mo, you need to take Cosmo White along with other required supplements for 6 months or more.

    If you have a fair skin, you need to take Cosmo White along with other required supplements for 3 months or more.

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 13, 2014 at 11:58 am

    Oh no, i should've read thisearlier. SnowCaps talaga ung tinetake ko, nkaka2boxes pa lang ako (1 month) then nung paubos na lhat ng pinuntahan ko wala ng stock ng SnowCaps so i bought Cosmo Skin. Sana mag work sya sa kin kasi sayang naman kung hndi. Naimpress ako sa SnowCaps kasi naglight talaga ung skin ko kahit na 1 month pa lang ako gumagamit.

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 18, 2014 at 4:29 am

    HI! Ask ko lang po kung pwede ba pag sabayin yung Snowcap at KB gluta? may friend po kase ako, sabi nya pag mas madaming iinumin na gluta mas makakaputi. eh i have both Snow cap and KB. Now ang balak ko po sana 1 capsule of Snowcap, 1 capsule of KB and 1 capsule nung Vit. C ng KB. ok lang po ba yun? please help.

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 19, 2014 at 10:51 pm

    Hi! Have you tried glutafit by JC Premiere? The only glutathione that promotes weight loss aside from normal effects of any gluta.. It has low dosage though. Only 250mg each capsule. I first saw the glow on my face for the first few weeks of using it. Hope u try it and see. Thanks! Power! ^_^

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 29, 2014 at 1:01 am

    Ok lang yang combo na yan. Pero wag mo ng dagdagan ha kawawa liver natin

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 29, 2014 at 1:02 am

    not a fan of cosmo skin napimples pa ko

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva September 29, 2014 at 8:02 am

    ok lang 100mg sis,. magkaka diarrhea ka if more than 1000mg

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva October 9, 2014 at 1:08 am

    Nice 🙂

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva October 10, 2014 at 3:00 pm

    Hello miss kat do kojic soaps really "whiten" your skin as people claim or just give it a glowing look? And if it does, then do you recommend this or kojie sans? I want to tweak my skin to two or maybe three shades lighter and im wondering if kojic soaps alone can help me achieve this? And if so, then how many weeks or months will i notice change? I am a guy by the way 😀

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva October 11, 2014 at 7:54 am

    Uhmm had a problem with this bar, I had rashes after trying & it stayed on half of my face for a week. How I'd known that it's because of the bar? The stubborness in me gave way & found myself using this bar again, and again rashed started to form. So maybe it depends if u have a sensitive skin like me or not, maybe hiyangan lang din

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva October 11, 2014 at 1:48 pm

    Kapag po ba gumamit nito, pwedeng mag eskinol after? Baka po kasi makasunog ng skin pag ganun. Thanks 🙂

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva October 13, 2014 at 1:08 am

    No sis just use a moisturizer afterwards

  • Reply Kaycee Enerva October 13, 2014 at 1:11 am

    Yup it does pero kojic is too harsh. If you want try taking glutathione pills if you really want to whiten your skin.

    My boyfriend took vitapack megawhite, search for his before and after pics in this blog 🙂


  • Reply cheska October 15, 2014 at 11:25 am

    ano po bang lotion pwede ganitin after nitong soap?baka po kase pag gumamit ako ng ibang lotion mangitim ako…

  • Reply cheska October 15, 2014 at 11:27 am

    14 years old po ako pwede po ba gumamit niyan?

  • Reply hayley October 15, 2014 at 11:35 am

    magpeepeel po ba kapag gumamit nito

  • Reply jaycee October 15, 2014 at 11:54 am

    kapag gumamit po nito pwede po bang mag ponds facial wash after?natatakot po kasi ako baka magkapimples ako

  • Reply kikaysikat October 16, 2014 at 12:15 am

    micropeeling lang

  • Reply kikaysikat October 16, 2014 at 12:16 am

    Medyo matapang na to for you

  • Reply kikaysikat October 16, 2014 at 12:16 am

    Mag sunscreen ka na lang sa umaga you can try belo with spf

  • Reply arianacrizzy October 16, 2014 at 5:45 am

    halata po ba kapag nagmicro peeling?

  • Reply kikaysikat October 16, 2014 at 6:33 am

    Hindi naman 🙂 super micro

  • Reply brooklyn October 16, 2014 at 7:25 am

    hi ang ganda po ng mga reviews niyo!! 🙂 super fan niyo po ako and youre beautiful also take care po

  • Reply einjel October 16, 2014 at 4:04 pm

    Hi sis, which one do you prefer, kojic sans or belo? Have you tried royale gluta soap? I tried kojic sans kaya lang tagal ng effect. I tried royale gluta soap, mas effective sya un nga lng a bit pricey and mabilis din matunaw. That is why I'm looking for a cheaper but effective whitening soap..

  • Reply shami October 19, 2014 at 7:16 am

    After eskinol? I'll use a moisturizer? 🙂

  • Reply nikki October 19, 2014 at 5:03 pm

    hi miss kat 🙂
    ask ko lang po kung ok na gumamit nito while using garnier lightning facial wash & laneige toner ? pati ilang days po bago makita yung result ?? Im only 18…
    pls. reply po 🙂 thanks

  • Reply kikaysikat October 20, 2014 at 12:40 am

    Nope. soap lang talaga. See results in 7 days 🙂

  • Reply kikaysikat October 20, 2014 at 12:42 am

    Wag ka na mag eskinol 🙂

  • Reply Japs Donato October 21, 2014 at 12:11 pm

    How much is this soap ? 🙂

  • Reply kikaysikat October 24, 2014 at 8:00 am

    I think it's around 70php per bar

  • Reply shami October 26, 2014 at 12:33 am

    Ok sis 🙂 have been using eskinol. Stop ko na muna. 🙂 I'll see the results after this sem break 🙂 thank you ^_^

  • Reply mark October 31, 2014 at 5:19 pm

    Php. 59 sa 7 eleven.. ^^

  • Reply mark October 31, 2014 at 5:25 pm

    nakakatanggal din po ba ito ng pimple marks? suggest nman po kau..^^ salamat

  • Reply kikaysikat November 1, 2014 at 5:32 am

    For super dark marks no, I suggest using a stronger exfoliant like maxipeel solution (use with caution!)
    or the safer, sebo de macho

  • Reply joan November 8, 2014 at 8:28 am

    Hi po 🙂 I'm only 14 years old, ano po kayang whitening soap (or other product like lotion or face cream) ang effective pero safe?

  • Reply shiekina November 21, 2014 at 3:44 am

    Hi po gudam..san po mkakabuy ng snowcaps?? Talagang wlang avial po dito saan mang drugstore dito sa cagayan de oro eh.pls help

  • Reply grace January 17, 2015 at 2:45 am

    hi kikaysikat,hm much ba yung snowcaps? I am using cosmo din kasi naubus kona 2 btls,but hindi nmn nag light skin ko..walang nagbabago,hindi nmn ako maitim,I tot madalp lang ang effect sa akin.

  • Reply kattykate February 25, 2015 at 4:47 am

    Im using Cosmo skin for 1 week, pinimplea ako! Gz2 ko m sya itapon! "Boooo" for Cosmo skin, i don't recommend dis!

  • Reply kikaysikat March 2, 2015 at 7:51 am

    BOOOO NGA! 🙂 I also don't like cosmo skin!

  • Reply dee April 13, 2015 at 3:57 pm

    i ordered ishigaki from ageless beauty potions as per your recommendation but this link made me worried. Please comment. Which one is fake? thanks.

  • Reply kc April 14, 2015 at 1:33 pm

    I'd actually like to beg to differ from everyone's posts. As we all know, certain products may work on certain people. And for some, don't. I'd like to point out that this has in fact, worked for me. Im 18 and i've taken cosmo skin along with cosmo grapeseed extract (the one that comes in cosmo savers pack) for 6 months. It really just takes a lot of patience to see the results. 2-3 months into religiously taking the pills (1 cap/cosmo skin and 2 caps/grapeseed daily), i've been getting alot of reactions and compliments from friends and relatives. I have as well noticed changes in my skin as well as my skin seems noticeably alot lighter than of my friends when taking pictures etc. It faded my acne and pimple marks and most of all, it whitened me 2 to 3 shades lighter than my actual skin tone. I was light brown fair-ish before. I guess the grapeseed extract did help to give me that rosy white glow around my cheek area. The downside to these products is that it made me feel nauseous and vomit after taking my last pill for the night before going to bed. However this was not the reason why I had to stop taking the pills. It was too expensive for maintance. 2000 php + per pack. My word of advise is that, just because it didnt work for others, doesnt mean it wont work for you and vice versa. And for anyone who is just starting their journey…. Patience is virtue. 🙂

  • Reply kikaysikat April 17, 2015 at 7:21 am

    This!!! 🙂

  • Reply Kim Nguyen May 15, 2015 at 3:51 pm

    Hello, I was actually considering taking this product since this is one of the few brands that sell to the United States. Question though what factors are there to consider to making this product effective to whiten skin? Is it like the type of foods or is exercising one of the factors? I am a male that weighs 120 pounds if any of these are important factors. I also have a pretty medium brown olive skin tone.

  • Reply Michiyo Inoue July 22, 2015 at 5:48 am

    The amount of ALA in this made me so acidic it almost burnt a hole through my stomach. LITERALLY! ):
    I've tried this for a little under a month kasi it's after summer so I wanted to get my color back and despite my healthy diet, I got stomach ulcers. My doctor asked me if may tine-take ba daw akong supplements other than my vitamins (Stresstabs), I told him I was taking glutathione. He told me na most daw ng gluta supplements is may ALA and yun daw ang nagcause ng acidity. He didn't tell me to stop taking gluta but to just avoid the ones with ALA.
    I am temporarily taking omeprazole (for my ulcer) and avoiding Cosmo FOREVER!!! ))))):
    It may be just an isolated incident on my part but this is just a heads up for people who have sensitive stomachs or madalas ma-stress kasi kahit papano nakakaaffect din ang stress sa digestion natin. And stress is, more or less, why some people take glutathione aside from attempting to have lighter skin.
    Just be careful po sa mga sinusubukan natin, peps and do a little research first before being too adventurous 😉
    That's why product reviews like these are godsent.
    More power to you, Ms. Kaycee!

  • Reply kikaysikat July 24, 2015 at 6:15 am

    Thanks Michiyo, I thought ako lang nakaexperience ng super burning sensation.

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