If your facebook feed isn’t enough to fuel your hunger for essay-type year-ender post. Here is mine. Oh dear Lord I don’t even know where or how to begin. I’m sure many of you have travelled far and wide. Explored jungles, deserts, beaches. While I did have my fair share of adventures, 2015 was more of of a self-exploration for me. A transition year to knowing what I want and how to get it.
The first half of my 2015 was chaos. I was stuck in a 9-5 job where I worked as a business analyst for Chevron Holdings. The people were great, I had good friends, I had the best manager but I wasn’t satisfied. I’m sure many of you can relate to this. Have you ever felt you can do something but it isn’t really what you want to do? You do it because; it pays the bills. As with my career, I was trapped in a very abusive relationship. I couldn’t get out as soon because he manipulated my weak heart (and mind) into thinking no one can accept me and love me 100%.
It was one heck of a ride when I miraculously woke up from the nightmare that was. I quit my job, a month after, I ended the “relationship”. Cliche as it may sound but it is true that when you truly let go, something better will soon follow. You just got to take risks. Fortune favors the bold. I signed a contract with a talent agency, revamped my blog and currently doing what I love to do the most; write. Not only that, I met an amazing guy too.
I was never an optimist, not a pessimist either. My glass is neither half-full nor half-empty. For me it’s just a glass with water. A cynic I suppose. I do not know where the year 2016 will take me, yes I’m afraid of losing the things, people I love. But let me inspire you and myself, with Yoda’s quote from Phantom Menace; “Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. – Yoda”
I’ll try my best to steer away from going to the dark side and live life to love. Happy New Year to you my readers!