Understanding Bipolar Disorder – My Story
I’ve been trying to tell my relatives there was something wrong with me since I was in 2nd grade, every year, high school, college. They kept saying there was nothing wrong. “You’re not sick . You’re not crazy. ” ” They invented these illness for you to take drugs and get addicted and they make more money “ Until I graduated, I got myself a job, and after a few years, I decided to go to the psych myself. I’m diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. For years I suffered bullying, misunderstanding, anxiety, depression, and numerous cases of impulsive decisions that made my life even more miserable than it should. I wonder if I…
3 Simple Ways You Can Lessen Worries in Life
I had one of my friends ask me the other day “Kaycee, how can you manage to effortlessly hustle all your responsibilities?” I told her it may not be obvious on social media all the time but living everyday, as a single-mom with Bipolar II disorder is HARD. It’s a battle that has to be won every single day. Also Read: Understanding Bipolar Disorder Today I’d like to share a few of the things I do to lessen our worries in life a bit. You can try one, both, or all three! Tip #1: Good Food Now there’s eating for sustenance, and eating for satisfaction. I’m guilty of doing the latter. I CANNOT,…
On Quitting My Day Job to Pursue my Passion
Usapang #SelfLove It didn’t happen by accident. It wasn’t even intentional. To be honest I miss my day job. But since I’m here, panindigan ko na. I originally shared this story on my Facebook timeline. Decided to transfer here for safekeeping. The Story I will never forget the time my mom called me after I enrolled in Journalism in UST. “You passed Computer Science in PLM, can you withdraw your enrollment there? Mas madaming opportunities ang maalam sa computer” She wasnt wrong. I had the best paying jobs working in the IT Industry. I loved technology, etc but not in “that” way.. I wasn’t truly happy. I found my way into BLOGGING. It’s…
Intimacy Issues: On Fears and Fallbacks
Have you ever been so traumatized from a relationship, that there’s always this lingering fear of abandonment. I’m writing my feelings away as of this moment. I’m enveloped with so much sadness for no reason. Maybe there is. Maybe it won’t go away. In my 15+ years of experience on dating and relationships (naks! do mistakes count?), there’s always a lesson to be learned on each one. But does every disappointment make us stronger, or weaker? Most people would probably answer the former. I’m going to open up a bit to anyone who’s reading this post right now. There are days when I feel I don’t deserve to be loved. Or when I…
Should You Quit Your Day Job and Pursue Your Passion? | On Changes and New Beginnings
I can’t believe that after going through everything I had in my life, I am now coming up with a write-up that brings up so much feels. Hi there! I’m Kaycee Enerva also known as The Macho Mom of kikaysikat.com. The blog that you’re visiting right now. But before becoming a full-time blogger, did you know that I was an employee who worked 9 to 5? (3-12, 11-8, depending on the rotation shift). I never imagined making a career out of blogging. But looks like there’s no turning back. Should you quit your day job and pursue your passion? My life has been an emotional roller coaster and it won’t fit a single article…
Lola, My Nanay. You are Our Blessing. Stay Strong! #TibayNiNanay
My lola is turning 86 this year and almost all her years was spent taking care of the family. Especially me. I have to admit I’m one of my grandma’s favorite apo. I consider her my 2nd mom, my nanay. Because when I was younger, my mom worked overseas so that I can have a better life (that’s another story). Watching Orocan‘s latest video for Mothers’ Day inspired me to write a tribute to her strength, perseverance, and never ending love that she gave me and the rest of her family. Our family was never well-off. It was in between lower-middle class at most. My lolo worked as a jeepney driver and chairman for 2…
Personal Musings: On Dealing with Insecurities, Rejections, and Self-Improvement
One of the most dreadful feeling in the world is rejection. It can be because of something you have, or something you lack. I’ve dealt with this way back in gradeschool when I was bullied and called ugly a lot because of my strange features and dark skin. Typical because of how we were raised in this colonized country. I thought now that I’m 30, older and wiser, I can handle a bit of ~no~ but experiencing it again stings. Dealing with Insecurities and Rejection I am a writer. A content creator. I usually prefer working behind the scenes while sharing what I know to my readers. The word influencer is something I abhor.…
Self-Love: 5 Simple Tips to Love Yourself a Little More
This is me. Without filters without edits. Stretchmarks and scars. I am happy with myself, for myself. Are you a people pleaser? I was, several years ago. Even if it meant sacrificing my own welfare for others. Used wisely, No is an instrument of integrity and protects us against exploitation. I started saying NO when I learned to love myself a little more. No is both the tool and the barrier by which we establish and maintain the distinct perimeter of the self. No says, “This is who I am; this is what I value; this is what I will and will not do; this is how I will choose to act.” We love others, give to others, cooperate with…
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Photo Diary: Macho Kid and Mom Foodtrip Adventures Part 2!
Woohoooooooo! This is another personal musing post where I’m not thinking of any search engine optimization, making it viral, or anything else! Just sharing my precious moments captured in photos turning into precious memories. My macho kid is growing so fast huhuhu he’s turning 8 this year and I just can’t!!! He’s not a baby anymore! 3 more years and he’ll go into puberty T_T I. JUST CANT I will miss my baby so much! But like everyone else. Everyone grows old. Even me. Even you. He promised me that when he becomes a teen we’ll still have our mama and baba adventures (that’s what we call our dates) and we’ll be gym…