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I Lalamoved Myself to Survive Holiday Traffic | A CHRISTMAS STORY
This is an example of what usually happens when I’m manic. I have a story to tell and goes over and over my head like sheep. So here I am awake at 4am in the morning, ready to tell you the story of how I had myself delivered via LALAMOVE to Survive Holiday Traffic. Yes you read that right. And like all stories we’re going to start from the beginning (of the day). You know it’s traffic. Why are you in Manila that day? I made a commitment. I agreed going to 2 events that day, both unsponsored. The first one was Cadbury’s GenerosiTREE, a launch of their campaign at SM MOA were you get…
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An Art Exhibit Promoting Mental Health Awareness by Boxless Society
On its third annual exhibit at Sining Kamalig, Boxless Society, a mental health support group for artists and their caregivers, presents their truth in both foreign and familiar colors they’ve always desired to unravel boldly in Despite My Being _______, I Am a Living Story. Kikaysikat Says: Despite my being bipolar; I try function and contribute to society with my best efforts. Challenging? Yes. But I do my best to cope thanks to a great support system. I’m a proud momma of an 8-year old who’s teaching him how to be kind and treat people of all races and genders as an equal. I am a living story and I write my life.…
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Bipolar Musings: On Rapid Cycling and How Time is Never Enough
I promised myself that I’ll finish as much tasks in my head tonight. Just to clear away debris and unnecessary thoughts. Tomorrow I told macho kid we’ll watch Jurassic World again tomorrow in the cinema. Even if we already watched it last week, it’s the first time he genuinely liked a movie. This post was written: June 16 2018 I’m writing this now as a break. I have a couple of pending ideas on my desktop notes, and a hundred in my head. I’ve been experiencing a roller-coaster of extremes these past few days. My depression and mania have been switching at a more frequent pace than before. What is Rapid Cycling? Bipolar disorder is…
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Personal Musings: On Dealing with Insecurities, Rejections, and Self-Improvement
One of the most dreadful feeling in the world is rejection. It can be because of something you have, or something you lack. I’ve dealt with this way back in gradeschool when I was bullied and called ugly a lot because of my strange features and dark skin. Typical because of how we were raised in this colonized country. I thought now that I’m 30, older and wiser, I can handle a bit of ~no~ but experiencing it again stings. Dealing with Insecurities and Rejection I am a writer. A content creator. I usually prefer working behind the scenes while sharing what I know to my readers. The word influencer is something I abhor.…
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Gardenia Delicia Spread Review | Deliciously Delightful!
Food affects our mood tremendously. Eating something delicious can transform anyone from grumpy to happy! That’s why I’m excited to share with you Gardenia Delicia Spread. To be honest, that morning when we were supposed to shoot for the unboxing video. I was in a terrible, terrible mood. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Even while writing this post as of this moment, I am not my best. My son macho kid, is one of my saving grace. He helps me stay sane despite having a bipolar disorder. Surprisingly, eating this yummy Gardenia Delicia spread with Geof instantly perked up my mood! Continue reading for our full review which…
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I’M A BIPOLAR SINGLE MOM AND IM ON THE VERGE OF A MENTAL BREAKDOWN
I’M A BIPOLAR SINGLE MOM As a mom, I want to raise my son in a positive and healthy environment. But being bipolar; A condition not treatable, genetically passed and can only be managed by meds I don’t want to take because of worse side effects. It’s a challenge. My life isn’t perfect and it’s almost an open book. Tragic stories have been written on this blog. From my ex-husband abandoning us, to financial management problems I overcame a few years back. Today I am stressed and I don’t want macho kid to see me slowly breaking down. IN THE VERGE OF A MENTAL BREAKDOWN I won’t go into the details of…
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Personal Musings: Letting Go of Things You Can’t Control
The past few months I’ve been going through intense depression. I’m not able to focus on my work, sometimes I lash out on my family. A lot of thoughts are going in my head trying to find answers to questions like; Why is this happening to me? Why do they get these so and so opportunities and not me, when I deserve better When will this suffering end? How can I make-up for my wrong-doings? I wish I can turn back time What can I do to make you love me? (yes, the song from The Corrs) I was losing sleep, and losing my mind. Repeating different scenarios over and over in…
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Life Lately : Of Biglaang Budget Shopping to Deleting Traumatic Memories
It’s always been said that you can never move on something until you accept things as they are. If you’ve been following my blog for sometime now, you may know that some last year, I was able to escape an abusive relationship. You can check out my separate journal entry for that if you’re curious what happened to me. I got an alert from google that my photo storage is about to get full and that I need to delete pictures to retain memory. Sure, no big deal. Until I saw the photos. Deleting each picture made my heart felt like a pin cushion, and each picture deleted is a pin removed. It’s…
