Bipolar Musings: On Rapid Cycling and How Time is Never Enough
I promised myself that I’ll finish as much tasks in my head tonight. Just to clear away debris and unnecessary thoughts. Tomorrow I told macho kid we’ll watch Jurassic World again tomorrow in the cinema. Even if we already watched it last week, it’s the first time he genuinely liked a movie. This post was written: June 16 2018 I’m writing this now as a break. I have a couple of pending ideas on my desktop notes, and a hundred in my head. I’ve been experiencing a roller-coaster of extremes these past few days. My depression and mania have been switching at a more frequent pace than before. What is Rapid Cycling? Bipolar disorder is…
Gardenia Delicia Spread Review | Deliciously Delightful!
Food affects our mood tremendously. Eating something delicious can transform anyone from grumpy to happy! That’s why I’m excited to share with you Gardenia Delicia Spread. To be honest, that morning when we were supposed to shoot for the unboxing video. I was in a terrible, terrible mood. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Even while writing this post as of this moment, I am not my best. My son macho kid, is one of my saving grace. He helps me stay sane despite having a bipolar disorder. Surprisingly, eating this yummy Gardenia Delicia spread with Geof instantly perked up my mood! Continue reading for our full review which…
Being Bipolar: 5 Things I Do to Cope During a Manic Episode (Mania)
Hi I’m Kaycee, 30 (well turning 31 soon) and “suffering” from bipolar disorder. I was professionaly diagnosed when I was 21 but the doctor told me I probably had this ever since. Bipolar disorder is genetic and can be triggered (activated) through trauma or a really shitty childhood. Today is actually a celebration. Shifting from my previous depressive semi-suicidal episodes, I am now in MANIA O_O. I was planning to just write about how I exhaust myself till I burn out from work to waste all this excess energy. But look, I jotted down 5 things I do to cope with Mania Shout out to Project Vanity for their 10th yr anniversary! The…
My Obsession with RuPauls Drag Race and its Impact on my Mental Health
This is a story of my obsession with RuPaul Drag Race and its therapeutic effects on my mental health. Confession. I have watched every season of Ru Paul Drag Race for more than 3 times each season. Probably more than thrice, I lost count! Hahaha! Good day. I’m Kaycee and I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar-2. This means I have seasonal moods that switches randomly or sometimes triggered by certain events. The mood swings can span from years, months, or hours (heaven forbid rapid cycling). You can learn more about my life as bipolar here (Read More: Being Bipolar) Last year I spiraled into a state of depression for months. It was triggered by…
Bipolar Swings – Define Depression
Depression is not as simple as “feeling sad”. You can break a smile but still feel empty. I heard someone give me an advice to “cry it out” but there’s nothing coming out. I can’t cry. At times I drift into thoughts where people I love would be better without me. My days of negativity can be burdensome. Why do I do what I do? What is the meaning of life? Why do we even exist? I’m hanging by a thread. This will not last forever. Nothing does. #BeingBipolar is an everyday struggle. When we’re manic, we can be productive, but our inhibitions are low. When we’re depressed, we need to have twice, thrice the…
Being Bipolar: Throwback to a Depressive Episode
Author’s Note: This short sentimental post below was written November 3, 2016 during a depressive episode. I am diagnosed with Bipolar-2 Disorder (See: Being Bipolar). I’m posting this in the hopes of to inspire other people striving with mental illnesses to never give up. While blogging on February 17, 2017 I’m manic. Everyone puts their best face forward especially on profile photos. Tonight Im switching things up a bit. My previous photo was me, with makeup and a fake smile. This is another side of me. I am diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder and an advocate of mental illness awareness. Tonight. I am not okay. To be honest Ive been feeling “not okay”…
Understanding Bipolar Disorder – My Story
I’ve been trying to tell my relatives there was something wrong with me since I was in 2nd grade, every year, highschool, college. They kept saying there was nothing wrong. “You’re not sick . You’re not crazy. ” ” They invented these illness for you to take drugs and get addicted and they make more money “ Until I graduated, got myself a job and after a few years I decided to go to the psych myself. I’m diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. For years I suffered bullying, misunderstanding, anxiety, depression and numerous cases of impulsive decisions that made my life even more miserable than it should. I wonder if I was diagnosed…
Life Lately : Of Biglaang Budget Shopping to Deleting Traumatic Memories
It’s always been said that you can never move on something until you accept things as they are. If you’ve been following my blog for sometime now, you may know that some last year, I was able to escape an abusive relationship. You can check out my separate journal entry for that if you’re curious what happened to me. I got an alert from google that my photo storage is about to get full and that I need to delete pictures to retain memory. Sure, no big deal. Until I saw the photos. Deleting each picture made my heart felt like a pin cushion, and each picture deleted is a pin removed. It’s…
Sentimental Sundays – A Confession I’m Letting Out of my Chest
It’s not Sunday I know, I was supposed to publish this on Sunday but I failed the Marshmallow test again. I can never compete with anyone but myself. It’s a battle I’ve had, well we’ve had since we were born. To survive what we call life. I’m 29, a single work at home mom, and struggling. Why struggling? I have to be honest with you, everyone at least. I left my high-paying corporate job not by choice but by force. I was in a highly abusive relationship that left me emotionally and mentally unstable, stacking on top of my bipolar condition. The evil man manipulated me into leaving my job. Now there’s no…
OOTD: Being a Bi-Polar Blogger
I was supposed to write reviews today but I’m not in the mood. Maybe later, tonight, tomorrow? I don’t know. There are days when I’m manic and can write 8 post at a maximum. Drain down the depression road and I went on hiatus for months. Today I’ll be sharing with you more of my personal musings, drama, and benefits of blogging bipolar. Harley Quinn right here is not Bipolar. She’s a psychopath and schizophrenic. Close enough. OOTD photos for your amusement at the bottom of the post. Further Reading: What is Bipolar Disorder? Compared to an average person. A normal person. When a bipolar becomes manic, we get so hyper and have…
